Teaching Journal

I have decided to give you guys actual transcripts from a 102 class of mine. I am not sure what purpose this documentation of my madness will provide you; nevertheless, I thought it might be neat to be able to access the "experience" of our time together this semester.

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CLASS I: (the topic is Work)
 

         PROFESSOR:  Lets talk about this thing we call work.

       What is it good for?

         STUDENT:  Absolutely nothing.

         STUDENT:  We work to get money.

         STUDENT:  Work for paper.

         PROFESSOR:  I guess paper being money.

         STUDENT:  To get away from the house.

         PROFESSOR:  So you work to get out of the house, boredom.

         STUDENT:  To meet new people.

         STUDENT:  Success.

         PROFESSOR:  What else?

         STUDENT:  Prestige.

         PROFESSOR:  What else?  What is work good for?  Somebody

       said because they actually enjoy it.

         STUDENT:  Stress.

         STUDENT:  To make things so we can live off of.

         PROFESSOR:  For survival.

         STUDENT:  You have to work to live.

         PROFESSOR:  Work to live and live for work.

         STUDENT:  Most people die 8 years after they retire.

         PROFESSOR:  Why do you think that is?

         STUDENT:  Because they don't have a purpose in life.

         STUDENT:  Challenge.

         STUDENT:  Stay healthy.
 
 

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         STUDENT:  To promote thinking.

         STUDENT:  Pay Bills.

         PROFESSOR:  What do you have to pay for?

         STUDENT:  Bills, car, hobbies.

         PROFESSOR:  Food, utilities entertainment.  What's the

       difference between a hobby and work?

       STUDENT:  It's usually for fun.

         PROFESSOR:  So for fun.  You don't get paid.  Golf is an

       expensive hobby.

         STUDENT:  Some play sports and get paid for it.

         PROFESSOR:  So hobby is fun, you don't necessarily get

       paid.  If you call it a hobby you don't get paid.  You have

       your other job or your other work you do.  Hobby usually

       doesn't involve the exchange of commodities and this is

       what we enjoy doing.  Would it be fair to say that you are

       not forced into it?

         STUDENT:  Right.

         PROFESSOR:  Is there a purpose to a hobby?  Does there

       have to be a purpose to a hobby?

         STUDENT:  No as long as it makes you happy.

         STUDENT:  It helps you relax.

         PROFESSOR:  Okay.  Usually no pressure in a hobby and if

       will is it's temporary and you can leave it.  Do you need

       breaks from your hobby.

         STUDENT:  Yeah.
 
 
 
 
 

         PROFESSOR:  What kind of hobby needs a break?

         STUDENT:  Reading, cross stitch.

         STUDENT:  Building model trains.

         PROFESSOR:  Yeah because you have to glue.  Okay.  So how

       do you know you're working and not playing?

         STUDENT:  Because it wears you out.

         PROFESSOR:  Work wears you out.

         STUDENT:  Basketball wears you out too.

         PROFESSOR:  What's the difference between a basketball

       work out and a work work out.

         STUDENT:  Burn out.

         STUDENT:  Your boss starts getting on your butt.

         STUDENT:  When I go to work it's my relaxing time.  I

       have to do things when I'm there but if I wanted I could

       quit.  It's relaxing because it's away from everything

       that's really hectic in my life like children or family.

         PROFESSOR:  So for you your work is an escape.

         STUDENT:  To me work is more what I do at home than when

       I actually go to my workplace.

         PROFESSOR:  So this for you because it's less stressful,

       less demanding?

         STUDENT:  Right because a lot of things I'm doing at home

       now is new and it's different.  It's not a headache but

       it's more work than actually going to work.

         PROFESSOR:  So when we say the word job we usually refer
 
 
 
 
 

       to something that is repetitive.  You do the same thing

       over and over in your job.  So why do you think most people

       will tell you, on average, that they do not look forward to

       reporting to work on Monday morning?

         STUDENT:  Because it's Monday morning.

         STUDENT:  Because it's the same ol' thing.

         STUDENT:  Somebody's going to tell you what to do.

         PROFESSOR:  There are different kinds of managers.  There

       are managers that are able to entrust you to do your work

       and others who trust you.  So there is an authority figure,

       it's repetitive.  Couldn't this be said for baseball,

       fishing, football?

         STUDENT:  It doesn't make you happy.

         PROFESSOR:  What makes you happy?

         STUDENT:  You're doing it at your own will.

         PROFESSOR:  So hobbies is want to do and job is have to

       do.

         STUDENT:  You don't have to work.

         PROFESSOR:  You don't?

         STUDENT:  Some people get on welfare and they don't work.

         STUDENT:  I would if I could.

         STUDENT:  You're the reason why I hate welfare.

         PROFESSOR:  What does lazy mean?

         STUDENT:  Bum.

         STUDENT:  Moocher.
 
 
 
 
 

         STUDENT:  People on welfare with no intention of getting

       a job.

         STUDENT:  People standing on the corner with a sign.

       They have no intention of getting a job, no ambition.

         STUDENT:  What if a paraplegic is on welfare.

         PROFESSOR:  Is that different?

         STUDENT:  Yeah.  Because they can't do a physical job.

         STUDENT:  They can be a Wal-Mart greeter.

         STUDENT:  What if you have no arms and no legs?

         STUDENT:  Steven haw kins has none, he's crippled and

       he's a Physics genious.

         STUDENT:  Beethoven was deaf.

         PROFESSOR:  We have a fascination with the term

       handicapped or differently abled.  Ultimately the question

       is, and this happens with people who have physical, things

       that are readily apparent, there are still how are you

       going to be readily productive.  One Guy can barely move

       his head and he's in class.  I have students who say they

       can't come to class because they slept late.  Physical

       doesn't have much to do with it in that case.  There are

       students in here who are definitely differently mentally

       abled.  You may be physically present but maybe only 20 to

       30 percent mentally present.  You know there are professors

       who will teach their classes and you can find their notes

       from 30 years ago and you can find their notes.  They are
 
 
 
 
 

       repetitive.  We call them widget jobs.  You'd think that

       would possibly be a good thing.  If you don't have to think

       about it, you know, like the assembly line.  I make sure

       this particular widget is in this position over and over.

       In the beginning of industrial America and the assembly

       line invented by Henry Ford and somebody else but Henry

       Ford took all the credit because he made all the money for

       it but do you know how much they paid them people to work

       in the factories.  Like 5 bucks an hour.  Why did they have

       to pay them so much money?

         STUDENT:  Boring.

         PROFESSOR:  Right.

         PROFESSOR:  The Mo not any of it made it dangerous.  Keep

       the job interesting or people will lose limbs.

         STUDENT:  It can be fun.

         PROFESSOR:  It can but if I say we're going to work today

       you're like oh God.  If I say we're going to do something

       that counts for nothing then you all relax but then you're

       like why even do it.

         STUDENT:  It depends on perception.  Dude, there is a lot

       of people who will come and be like my God we got to go to

       this class.  I hate my classes but I like school after I

       come to this class.  You make me get into it.  I like

       Dr. Hall but it's boring.  It's just certain things.  My

       history teacher is just like that example.  He's monotone
 
 
 
 
 

       and he's like the American revolution, we're going to study

       the American revolution.  You walk in and throw a quiz and

       a meditation, you're out and it's like --

         PROFESSOR:  I'm lazy.

         STUDENT:  No.

         PROFESSOR:  Why did I leave the classroom.

         STUDENT:  You went to get books.

         PROFESSOR:  No I went to hang out.  No I learned at this

       place if the teacher is in the room you guys are waiting

       for the teacher to say something.  You're not focusing on

       what you're doing.  If I leave you're like we can be real

       people.  As long as the authority is in the room you're

       nervous.  You would think being repetitive would make you

       comfortable.  In the army if you know how to put your M 16

       together in the dark then you have confidence.  Ironically,

       however -- what happens with our work, you go to the same

       job, wear the same uniform, think about uniforms on a job,

       anybody can wear it.  That's why they have casual day now.

       Administration comes in their jeans one day a week.

       They're finding also what's happening in Seattle,

       California area, because a lot of lawyers are representing

       dot com, that the lawyers are trying to be like them so

       they don't look like a stiff.  What they're finding out is

       that the productivity seems to be going down for those

       lawyers.  What they think productivity is may be 100
 
 
 
 
 

       Billable hours.  It's like in the NFL you can make a lot of

       money for 3 or 4 years but after that your body is gone.

       you have athletes and that's basically playing a kid's

       game.  A journalist said lets never forget when a person

       hits a home run that they're playing a kid's game.

         STUDENT:  It's a different level.

         PROFESSOR:  Why?

         STUDENT:  Because there is bucks.

         PROFESSOR:  Mega bucks.

         STUDENT:  It's a job.

         PROFESSOR:  What is their job?

         PROFESSOR:  It's entertainment.  In chariots of fire they

       talk about the hundred yard dash.  The runners and cuss

       toad y'all workers were talking about it --

         STUDENT:  I don't think the olympics is like the same as

       a paid baseball player.  A friend of mine just trained for

       the olympics and she's putting a lot on hold to do it and

       it's not really that Profitable so I don't think that's the

       same as playing baseball for millions of dollars.

         PROFESSOR:  If you've ever seen the movie field of dreams

       you used to not get paid for playing football or baseball.

       In 1985 when Andre Agassi came out in tennis, Jimmy

       Connors, superstar American, said the reason why Agassi

       could not win a major tournament even though he was a

       talented player, was because Nike paid him millions and
 
 
 
 
 

       millions of dollars where it took Jimmy Connors winning

       several tournaments, several years to make the millions.

       People playing something for fun and they turn it in to an

       escape.  Look at the ones on drugs.  We go gee, that's a

       real shame but then we want them to play.  Okay, a Guy who

       chokes a coach, you're willing to forget that because man

       they can really hit the ball or do the hoop or do a

       rebound.  Dennis Rodman --

         STUDENT:  I hate him.

         PROFESSOR:  How do you know him.

         STUDENT:  You just excused an action that you say is

       wrong.

         STUDENT:  I that's why I'm not an M B A sponsor.  I think

       if that coach would have pushed me I would have done the

       same thing because he's human.  Whether he should be

       sponsored is another thing.

         PROFESSOR:  Rodman is more of an image -- he's a good

       player but people paid attention to the image.

         STUDENT:  I don't like him because when he played with

       the pistons where was the hair and all of that.  When he

       got with the bulls he had to do all of that because he was

       on a team where he had to be more because it had Michael

       Jordan and Scotty Pippin.

         STUDENT:  He was competing for attention.

         PROFESSOR:  So money isn't enough.
 
 
 
 
 

         STUDENT:  Exactly.

         PROFESSOR:  So why do you think in your 4 or 5 or 6

       figure job, that some how if I had more money life would be

       better?  So maybe it's not about money.  If you're not a

       liberal when you're young you have no heart and if you're a

       conservative when you're older and you have a job and money

       and family then you have no brain.  Isn't that the saying.

       So what does this money really mean to us?

         STUDENT:  It means a better house because years ago when

       I was married we started off dirt poor.  Maybe together we

       were making 18 thousand dollars.  As my husband advanced in

       his job we had a nice salary and then it was always

       something else that we needed, boat or whatever.  There was

       always something we needed.  When I got divorced and went

       back down to nothing I realized I was happier.

         STUDENT:  When Michael Jordan came back for the second

       time somebody said he came back for the money.  He came

       back because he loved basketball.  He had the money anyway

       before that.  He was the last great player.  Basketball

       sucks now.

         PROFESSOR:  When we talk about work we end up talking

       about the heroes of work.  If you want to talk about

       Jordan, if you read his book, he talks about the work

       ethic.  There is a reason why we have the gross domestic-we

       have and crime and all of that.  But Michael Jordan did
 
 
 
 
 

       something that through this he was able to achieve.  That

       is he flew.  We were talking about the olympics.

       Individuals were talking about why they watched the

       olympics and it was because it showed them what was

       possible in human potential.  So then you say why do people

       focus on Martin Luther King, mal come X, mother Teresa,

       James Carville and all of that that seems to just break the

       rules.  They do something no one else apparently thinks

       they can do.  Roger banister was supposed to be the hope in

       the 1900 olympics for the 400 meter run.  He failed, he

       lost, screwed up bad.  The only way he felt he could redeem

       himself was the 4 minute mile.  He was told, everybody was

       told, by sin tis, Doctors, physicians, that the human being

       could not break the 4 minute mile because physically it was

       impossible and if you tried your heart would explode out of

       your chest.  Banister in the olympics trying to redeem

       himself, trying to break this record, thinking his heart is

       going to explode out of his chest.  Maybe he said to

       himself maybe not.  People who saw it said it was like

       seeing time stopped.  He Broca barrier that had never been

       broken before and then after that 16 people broke it.  What

       was Roger banister's work?  What was Michael Jordan's work?

       Pushed limits, broke limits, showed potential in the heart

       soul body.

         STUDENT:  Military does that.
 
 
 
 
 

         STUDENT:  Your mind sets physical limits on your body.

         PROFESSOR:  When you think about the fact that according

       to psychologist, 10 percent of your brain is all that you

       use.  If your car can only use 10 percent of gas that you

       put into it how cheated would you feel?  That's what we do

       with our brains everyday an our minds everyday, especially

       when we get into the rut.  Then somebody comes out like

       Bill Gates and says lets do this and makes all this money,

       Ray Crock, he's the guy who put MacDonald's together.

       Before that there was no such thing as fast food.  After he

       did this he said I'm going to put it all over America and

       people said you can't do it because people won't sit just

       for a little while and leave.  Maybe it was prediction or

       maybe he saw where the economy was going.  If you have a

       machine job then this made perfect sense.  Then there is

       Sam Walton.  People will never go into a cynder block

       building and buy eggs and hose in the same place.  Here is

       something you're going to do some day if you have not

       already, a resume' and interview.  What is your purpose

       when doing this?

         STUDENT:  To get a job.

         PROFESSOR:  You sell yourself.  You make yourself into a

       commodity.  Am I a good investment?  Okay this is the rules

       I have to go through to get the job.  Once I get the job

       then this is just the past.  It doesn't define my future.
 
 
 
 
 

       Most people, especially when they graduate from a college,

       like in my day you had your education and maybe a job.

       That was your resume'.  How confident did you feel?  A

       resume' is supposed to be extensive, right?  All I did was

       survive 4 years of college and I had worked as an intern

       somewhere.  These were my responsibilities.  If I define

       myself that way, I'm scared.  A person can look at this and

       say, like if there is a lot, they can look and say he's got

       a lot of experience in the old stuff but not the new

       technology.  You think you're somebody because you have a

       lot of things after your name.  The 3 most important --

       okay.  You're at a party and somebody asks you what do you

       do?  What do you answer?

         STUDENT:  Oh nothing.

         PROFESSOR:  Right.

         STUDENT:  Go to school.

         PROFESSOR:  I'm a student.  Now when you have a job what

       do you think you're going to answer?  Right.  I'm an

       engineers, I work for Dow chemical, I'm a CPA.  When you're

       a student the next question is what's your major.  Why is

       that the natural next question?  This is why you're in

       school.  They don't ask you if you're getting a lot out of

       that.

         STUDENT:  Do you enjoy it?

         PROFESSOR:  Are you learning anything?  They ask you what
 
 
 
 
 

       your major is?  What track?  Which track are you on?

         STUDENT:  Transfer.

         PROFESSOR:  Okay.  You're going to take a few questions

       and then transfer.  What are the majors people won't give

       you flack over?

         STUDENT:  Psychology.

         STUDENT:  Pre law.

         PROFESSOR:  Pre med, pre dental, physical therapy.

         STUDENT:  Business.

         STUDENT:  Education.  If you say education in Louisiana

       though --

         PROFESSOR:  People say when are you leaving?  Usually

       this translates into teacher, this education.

         STUDENT:  I know a Guy who just graduated from a major

       University and has a degree to be some kind of scientist, a

       big time scientist and the only job he's going to be able

       to do is a teacher because twl is not that many jobs

       available for that field.  So really a lot of things you'll

       do, you'll just be a teacher.

         PROFESSOR:  If you extend the definition of teacher,

       every job you do be it house wife, husband is a teacher.

         STUDENT:  I'm talking a about a school, teacher type

       situation.

         PROFESSOR:  Where are the ones that give you a quizzical

       look like what the hell are you doing?
 
 
 
 
 

         STUDENT:  Music.

       STUDENT:  Culinary arts.

         STUDENT:  I'm going to Paris to study.

         PROFESSOR:  English.  These over here you've got a

       career.  Psychology you're a psychologist, pre law, you're

       a lawyer and so on.  If you lock yourself into this stuff

       over here, music --

         STUDENT:  They look at you crazy if you're going to be an

       interpreter.

         PROFESSOR:  What are you doing it for then?  Why are you

       wasting money.  General studies, oh great.  Liberal arts.

       First of all, the word liberal get as bad rap.  Will is a

       program here, Discover, and it will give you a list of

       thousands and thousands of jobs.  At what point do you have

       to stop and say you've got a serious profession in mind for

       your life?  If somebody says what do you want to be?  I

       want to be an astronaut, a Pokemon trainer, whatever.  You

       can say anything.  Then at what point does that not

       suffice?  At what age are you not allowed to say I want to

       be an astronaut anymore?  You start school around the age

       of 5 and then it ends up here when you get a job.  We go

       through elementary, middle, high school, higher education

       in college and then maybe post graduate or graduate work

       and then supposedly you get into your real world.

       Elementary school through middle school you have a thing
 
 
 
 
 

       you call recess.  That's okay.  You have that worked into

       your day.  In high school they call that the break or

       lunch.  Now you have your lunch break.  You have to figure

       out how to have fun in that one hour or whatever.  College,

       we don't do that anymore.  We say had is when your classes

       are and the rest is up to you.  Then you supposedly you get

       your job and you get a 15 minute break, lunch break,

       another 15 minute break.  You work 5 or 6 days a week,

       maybe 2 weeks off vacation a year.  Some jobs get holidays.

       You do this for average of 45, 50, 55 years.  Statistics

       have shown that most people will go through 3 major career

       changes in life.  I'm 36 and I've had 4 different jobs.

         STUDENT:  You mean real jobs.

         PROFESSOR:  Yeah, real jobs.  So you're going to do that

       for 45, 50, 55 years.  What are you going to get out of it?

         STUDENT:  401 K.

         PROFESSOR:  Right.  You work so you can retire.  You're

       working so you don't have to work.  You're going to spend,

       40, 60, 80 hours a week working at something you're looking

       to not work at.  You're sleeping 6 to 8 hours a day, night,

       possibly, most of you not real.  Really.

         STUDENT:  12, 13.

         PROFESSOR:  Average is 6 a night.  We're not getting

       enough sleep, we're productive as hell supposedly, economy

       is booming and we're so stressed out.  The one thing people
 
 
 
 
 

       wants more than money is time.  That's what surveys say.

       Time to have meaningful exchanges in their lives which

       means they're not have meaningful exchanges in their job.

       They work, they can be productive, make money at it and

       it's not meaningful.

       STUDENT:  I don't feel that way.

         PROFESSOR:  Of course not but that's the way you look at

       your job.

         STUDENT:  My actual job where I go when I get paid, I do

       have meaningful exchanges and I enjoy it.

         PROFESSOR:  Congratulations.

         STUDENT:  I'm sure many people do.

         STUDENT:  Where do you work?

         STUDENT:  In a restaurant.

         STUDENT:  And you're happy.

         STUDENT:  Yeah.  I make plenty of money doing it and I'm

       happy.

         PROFESSOR:  I like my job, obviously.

         STUDENT:  Do you think happiness can be determined on

       whether or not you get a job paid by the hour or salary --

       if you're getting paid by salary or paid by the hour, which

       is better?

         PROFESSOR:  It depends on the person.  We look at

       custodial workers and we feel really bad and in some ways

       they're more free than Bill Gates will ever be.  If a
 
 
 
 
 

       person likes to be outdoors, don't put him in a desk job.

       The problem is that most people never answer questions

       about who they are and what they want in life.  You spend

       most of your time looking for the major career track.

       you've been guided into certain directions.  The question

       is what do you really want to do with your life.
 
 

                 What I'm going to ask you to do for Tuesday

       is take the meditation you did and expand it and

       solidify it and tell me what do you want your life's

       effort to finally mean on your death bed.
 
 
 

CLASS II: (WORK II)
 
 
 
 

         PROFESSOR:  What was your assignment for today?

       STUDENT:  85 years old, on your death bed, 5 minutes to

       live.

         PROFESSOR:  That's right.

       STUDENT:  I misunderstood.  I thought it was to think about

       that and consider it in with your essay.

         PROFESSOR:  Okay.  I had something in mind but then I got

       thrown.  Let me just start some stuff here and see where it

       takes us.  For lack of a better distinction, I think we can

       talk about there being kind of an outer versus an inner

       world.  We have our thoughts about things and then

       interactions with other people.  Did I have y'all talk

       about what the world's biggest problems were?

       STUDENT:  No.

       PROFESSOR:  Okay.  We'll start with that.  What do you

       think are the world's biggest problems in terms of this

       outer world?  Write that and we'll start from there.  What

       do you think are the biggest problems facing the world

       today?  Pollution?  AIDS?   what are some of the world's

       problems?

       STUDENT:  Crime.

       STUDENT:  Money.

         STUDENT:  Hate.

         PROFESSOR:  Money is a problem?
 
 

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         STUDENT:  Money creates problems.

         PROFESSOR:  Okay.

         STUDENT:  Greed, slauth, envy, pride.

         STUDENT:  Government.

         STUDENT:  Loss of respect.

       STUDENT:  Communication barrier.

         STUDENT:  Fighting for religion.

         STUDENT:  Racism.

       PROFESSOR:  And we can add any other ism to that.

         STUDENT:  People not minding their own business.

         PROFESSOR:  Anything else?

         STUDENT:  Being closed  minded.

         PROFESSOR:  What do you mean by that?

         STUDENT:  By not opening the options of looking at

       something different ways.  You may say you don't like BRCC

       because you don't like it.  That's not really saying why

       you don't like it but if you say you don't like how small

       this classroom is but it count be small to me because it

       accommodating a lot of people.

         PROFESSOR:  So making a decision without accepting all

       the facts.

         PROFESSOR:  What's the difference between conviction and

       stubbornness?

         STUDENT:  Conviction is you really believe it and

       stubborn it's kind of out of annoyance.
 
 

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         PROFESSOR:  So stubborn is someone who knows what they're

       believing is not true.  Can you be wrong and be convicted?

       STUDENT:  Yes.

         PROFESSOR:  Aren't you being closed minded?

         PROFESSOR:  So what is open minded?

         STUDENT:  Anything is possible.  You consider all the

       options and then after you consider all the options then

       you pick the one that you think best applies to the

       situation as it is.

         PROFESSOR:  So you're going to have to be open at a

       certain point and then you're going to have to be closed

       because when you make a decision you close all the doors

       but one.  Would it be proper to say it's really being aware

       of what is happening and letting it flow?

         STUDENT:  Right.

         PROFESSOR:  So humans, they're involved with individuals

       on how they view themselves --

       STUDENT:  And their beliefs.

         PROFESSOR:  If we have a disagreement, is it against your

       basic structure like my liver and your spleen?

         STUDENT:  No.  Questions beliefs.  I refuse to accept the

       possibility to believe what you believe.

       STUDENT:  I don't thing everything has to be a

       disagreement.

         PROFESSOR:  No but if this person has a belief
 
 

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       structure -- for example, how can 2 people believe in the

       same God, the Israelis and the muslims, they share the same

       religious traditions.  They refer to Jesus, they believe

       that Moses and Abraham and Jesus were all prophets that

       served the same God.  They're out there right now giving

       each other in the name of that God because God's on my

       side, not yours.  What we're talking about is not I like

       green and you like blue.  What we're talking about is

       serious belief structures like capitalist, communist.

       We're willing to let anything happen to the Russian people

       as long they were not capitalist.  So when I have a belief

       structure and you have a belief structure and we're equally

       conviced, why do we fight?  Sometimes we don't because

       sometimes we don't care.  When do we fight?

       STUDENT:  When someone tries to impose that upon us without

       us saying lets agree to disagree.

         PROFESSOR:  Sure.  Have you ever been in a discussion

       with somebody and you know what you should do but the

       person says you should do this but you don't want to do it

       now because they said it.  So we love to resist the idea of

       authority when it comes straight to our face.  If this

       belief structure and this belief structure are at war and

       this one is trying to impose and this one is resisting, on

       what basis is this one resisting?  If this person believes

       and then tries to impose the belief structure over here and
 
 

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       this person resist, on what basis to they resist??  They

       have them established.  Where do they come from?  The

       culture and system this person grew up in.  So what's

       really at war?

         STUDENT:  Like what they have been told before them and

       they've been taught to stand up for their beliefs so that

       across what's really at hand.

         PROFESSOR:  Right now if you had been born in another

       culture, say even in Europe, your beliefs about the world

       would be completely different than they are now.  One way

       very specific is you'd look at a map and you would expect

       to see your country in the center as opposed to the old U S

       A, red White and blue.  In some cultures, if you do not

       burp big after eating then they're insulted.  In their

       cultures, if you like the food you burp.  In Japanese

       cultures you do not give eye contact.  In our culture you

       have a 3 foot space we call personal space.  Do not get in

       that space unless I have accepted you in that space.  Now

       all of these are culturations.  When does our weekend

       occur?  Saturday and Sunday.  In sawdy Arabia it's Thursday

       Friday.  Our on is their dot.  Their 0 is our 5.

         STUDENT:  That's like us arguing with them about that.

         PROFESSOR:  Right.  We're in the year 2000 according to A

       D, in the year of our Lord.  In Islam it is like a 575,

       it's from the death of Muhammad, the day they started the
 
 

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       calendar. what's amazing about this to me is this is a

       culture you're born into and when you are 3 to 5, having

       the brain capacity of memory, you ear living in a system

       that says this is how reality is.  Before you have the

       ability to make a choice -- when memory starts you have a

       choice.  That's a proposition.  When memory starts you have

       a choice because then you use memory to judge.  Last time

       this didn't work, this time I got burned and that time

       this.  You start creating the choices of your own.  I'm

       guessing, and I'm not sure, it's kind of weird, a paradox

       for me at least, there seems to be, even though you've been

       inundated with that culture, there still seems to be

       something within us that says yes or no.  Something that

       says my culture comes complete with a moral code.  When you

       go in the army first thing they do is break you down.  They

       try to build you up so you're not afraid of anything.  They

       try to give you a way of responding in all situations,

       ideally.  After that they also give you the uniform, you

       stay together, you're a team, a group and you have a code

       which is you always stick by your wing man.  That's kind of

       the top gun version of it.  You always stick with your team

       and do the best for your team.  Yet even within that you

       can say no.  You can stop.  You can do something foolish.

       I doubt, it is very doubtful that we do things that are

       wrong, quote unquote, without what we know we are doing is
 
 

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       wrong.  So what we have then is, and this is the only way

       I've been able to look at it, we have something in terms of

       our inner and outer dynamic.  We have the program that

       tells us this is what we're supposed to do and then we have

       the small voice or conscience and for some it's religion

       that allows us to transcend the program.  If we couldn't

       then we couldn't make mistakes because we would all do what

       we were supposed to do.  What allows you to some how not do

       the program?  What was there a Florence Nightingale, why

       was there a Martin Luther King?  You can't go tend to the

       sick out in the field.  How is it that individuals came to

       believe, or Rosa Parks, growing up in a culture that says

       you a second class citizen.  You sit in the back of the

       bus.  How is it a person says no, today I think I'm going

       to sit in the front and you can't make me move.  There is

       something here going on that allowed her to believe that

       she just wasn't what we are society what her society

       thought she was.  What is work?  Everything that is work

       from the CEO of microsoft to being a parent to being a

       child, student or a teacher, it's all about trying to

       figure out the way through this thing called life.  We try

       to Wade our way through and make decisions about them.

       What are the problem that is our society faces?  If we

       actually worked on them and dealt with them that we could

       actually get somewhere with our society?
 
 

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         STUDENT:  Accept the fact that there are problems.

         PROFESSOR:  So to accept that there is a problem and to

       finally look at it.  For example, education, you know in

       this state dead last, or next to Mississippi, dead last in

       terms of education.  How people are defining that, that

       depends on the certain test and even here on our placement

       test there were questions about whether it should be used

       because it was unfair to certain groups.  What is fair?  In

       this nation or in this state we say oh my God education is

       a problem, there is violence in the schools, everything is

       going to hell in a hand basket, oh my God the sky is

       falling.  Oh my God the sky is falling.  Lets do something.

       No you don't understand, it's really bad.  Students don't

       respect anything.  They say okay, yes, ma'am, yes, sir will

       fix it.  If we can go, in 9 years time, figuring out a

       transistor watch to putting a man on the moon.  Transistor

       watches was beyond NASA.  It was bodacious.  It was bold.

       What was even boulder is some people went to work on it.

       In 9 years they put somebody on the moon.  If it did

       happen, they did that in 9 years from nothing to putting

       something on the moon.  Do you think if we really cared

       about education that anybody could stop us?  Obviously we

       don't care about education because nothing is happening.

       At a certain point that is a good thing because obviously

       it goes on.  We want it.
 
 

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         PROFESSOR:  Violence.  This is a proposition.  Ultimately

       I think every problem the world has has to do with the idea

       of violence.  Here is a person who is threatened by some

       action, activity or virus that is supposedly going to

       destroy this person.  So this person feeling threatened

       does what?  Strikes out whatever she thinks is a threat.

       If you want to go further the source is fear.  Have you

       ever been angry with someone or hurtful with someone when

       they gave you a really nice present?  I hate you.  I'm

       going to beat you up.  People will say that, right, because

       that vulnerability thing.  Essentially if we're in a good

       mood -- you saw when I walked in here today I was a little

       unsettled.  I walked in and you guys go oh shoot he's here.

       It's what you're saying.  What you're saying to me, at

       least my perception, because I was unsettled, was you

       didn't want me here.

       STUDENT:  We're coming from you are 13 minutes late, you

       had 2 and a half minutes left and we could be outside

       smoking.

         PROFESSOR:  Right.  If I am totally and complete in

       myself and I'm okay with myself then there is nothing you

       can do that can mess with me.  I say okay fine.  If I'm

       unsettled and I feel threatened then immediately it's okay

       I'm the authority figure, screw with me and I kill you.

       You saw it in action.  When you start to bite somebody
 
 

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       else, it's probably when you are like this about something

       or somebody.  Have you ever noticed -- some people can

       actually, and it's an amazing thing, be upset with this

       person over here and walk over here and be okay with this

       person.  That's amazing because I think you bring it from

       here to here.

       STUDENT:  That just causes problems with that person.

         PROFESSOR:  That's a wonderful thing.

       STUDENT:  You should be pissed at the whole situation.

         PROFESSOR:  I think it might be a Guy thing.  I'm glad to

       see that there are more people than I thought out there

       that are able to do that.

         STUDENT:  Most of the times people don't really get that

       angry.

         PROFESSOR:  Or it comes later you mean?

         STUDENT:  Lack of concern.

       STUDENT:  Like me, you piss me off and 2 minutes later I'm

       just like screw it.  Other people take it personally.

       STUDENT:  It all depends on your attitude.

         PROFESSOR:  What is being threatened when you're afraid?

       Your belief that some how you have a need that somebody

       else is in control of.  So then we end up with this idea

       that life is about gaining and losing.  What's your job in

       life?

       STUDENT:  To gain.
 
 

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         PROFESSOR:  To gain.  So then your job, your work, then

       becomes focused on this gain and really equally focused on

       losing.  If you're always focused on losing or there is a

       need or missing piece, can you gain enough to make sense

       out of that?

       STUDENT:  No.

         PROFESSOR:  The things we think will make us happy like

       money, intimacy, called love or sex, power, all of these

       ultimately will not satisfy.  You can fill your life with

       people and you can be in crowds of rooms and be honored and

       glorified --

         STUDENT:  But you're still going to be lonely.

         PROFESSOR:  There is a poem called person in the mirror.

       That's the one you can't fool.  So here is the interesting

       thing.  If we're focused on this model, this is our belief

       about work that we've been given in this culture and it's

       in the Indian culture and European certainly and I have to

       do more research on other cultures, but the Japanese have

       this -- here is how stupid Japan was in World War II.  You

       import all your steel that makes all your weapons, from the

       allies that you're fighting.  Can you say stupid?  They

       figured they were the master race.  Children of the sun is

       what they were called but they were about gaining.  This is

       what we try to do.  You try to cover yourself with whatever

       you can, more and more stuff as a way to keep from losing.
 
 

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         STUDENT:  If you have nothing then all you have is

       opportunity to gain.

         PROFESSOR:  Okay.  If you have nothing --

         STUDENT:  It can get worse.

         STUDENT:  Depends on what you call nothing.

         STUDENT:  No shoes, no clothes, buck naked living in a

       cardboard box.

         PROFESSOR:  Lets just consider the fact that possibly,

       and I want you to write about this right now.  Say there is

       nothing to gain in work.  Nothing to gain because

       ultimately you die and you can't take any of it with you.

       So ultimately there is nothing to gain and ultimately there

       is nothing to lose.  Now if we take these away and we just,

       for a moment, add something to the program that this is

       possible and real, now what motivation is left to work?

       Just write.  I want you to think about this.  There is

       nothing to gain and nothing to lose so what's left?

       Obviously there is something left because you're still

       here.

         PROFESSOR:  So did y'all come up with anything?

       STUDENT:  Yeah, self.

         STUDENT:  Actually there is more -- this is what I came

       up with.  There is more than one way to skin a rabbit,

       right?  If you have nothing to gain, at a certain point,

       you have nothing to lose at a certain point then you can
 
 

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       try a different approach maybe.  Maybe this one thing seems

       to be stopping you then try something different.  With

       trying comes failure.

         PROFESSOR:  There is nothing to lose.

         STUDENT:  The human drive to be better.

         PROFESSOR:  Better than what?

       STUDENT:  Better than what we were.

         PROFESSOR:  We can break the 4 minute mile.  Run faster

       than 10 seconds in a hundred meters, we can send people to

       the moon.

       STUDENT:  Still not good enough.

         PROFESSOR:  Why not.

       STUDENT:  We had the excitement of watching them on the

       moon so we had to put a dune buggy on Mars.

         PROFESSOR:  Think about it.  It's really possible that it

       all happened in California.  Were you there?  I was alive

       at the time and I saw Walter crone kite and I trusted

       Walter because Walter is just Walter.  Forest Gump shook J

       F K's hand and talked to him.

       STUDENT:  Computer generated.

         PROFESSOR:  I could have been fantasy.  If there was no

       such thing as Christmas then Wall Street would have to make

       it up.  60 to 70 percent of people's Profits come between

       December 26 and Jan * January 26.  If what you did for

       Christmas this year did not involve money, you write a
 
 

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       sincere note to this person about how you're feeling.  The

       birth of Jesus of Nazareth into the world was the reason we

       have Christmas.  If you're a jew, Hanukkah, the way that I

       remember it is it was a big battle that was won because --

       in other words, in the darkness of winter the light still

       shines.  On the other side of the globe it's winter from

       them but it's really summer.  Supposedly it's about the

       light being in the world of the dark fess.  What if your

       gifts to each other really reflected that as opposed to do

       you think they'll like this sweater or this ring which may

       or may not mean something 10 or 15 years from now.

         STUDENT:  Or you can bring everybody to MacDonald's.

         PROFESSOR:  It's like honey I love you so much I decided

       to write you a poem.  In all the things I bought for my

       mom, the one thing she always has is this stupid ass little

       poem I wrote for her when I was 10 years old.

       STUDENT:  It meant a lot to her.

         PROFESSOR:  At what point do we stop?  Are we trying to

       say we can't really feel that experience anymore so we have

       to buy you something.

       STUDENT:  It's become tradition basically.

         PROFESSOR:  Tradition.  Anybody ever read the story the

       lottery.

         STUDENT:  That is a good story.

         PROFESSOR:  Starts off with a bunch of kids in the mid
 
 

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       west pit putting rocks together in a pile.  All these folks

       gather in this little town and there is something going on.

       Some people are excited about it but it's basically the

       tradition of the lottery but it's gone on forever and ever.

       By family everybody picks up a sheet of paper out after a

       box.  * * one family -- everybody -- interestingly enough

       shirrly Jackson got all kinds of hate mail and others

       saying hey where can we participate.  Then everybody says

       who has the black dot who has the black dot?  Hutch Shi son

       has the black dot.  They say you know the rules.  Who is in

       the family?  The mother Tessie says well make my daughter

       to do.  They say she's married and in this family now.

       They're like no.  So each of the members of the family,

       little kids too, get the slips of paper and Tessie's got

       the black dot.  They're saying okay people, lets get it

       done.  All the kids including her son takes these rocks and

       they start humming it at her and they kill her.  It's

       tradition.  They was wondering why everybody died on the

       same day.  It's lottery day.  Why do you have to go to the

       place you go for Christmas?  Because it's tradition.  You

       know the problem when you get married and you have

       different towns you live in.  You have different towns to

       live in.  You have to go to Lafayette and to New Orleans.

       Or you can get married and families are in different

       states.  This year we're going to go to this family and
 
 

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       deep inside you're hearing you should be where you belong.

       That's usually in your mom's voice.  There is a lot to be

       said for family traditions.  If you ever saw fiddler on the

       roof it's about tradition.  The Catholic tradition has an

       incredible history to it.  It's an incredible weird history

       to it.  The church has a lot to answer for in the Catholic

       faith.  That tradition is rich and powerful.  I can go to

       anywhere in the world and even if it's instain bull and I

       don't speak the language I can still say the prayers with

       them.  Every Sunday you have billions of people saying the

       same prayer at the same time.  If you have a billion people

       saying whatever the Pope says, whatever the Pope says, how

       is that different from being a   Sheep?  What is there

       really to gain?  What are we trying to gain in our life?

         STUDENT:  Satisfaction.

         PROFESSOR:  Is that something you have to gain or

       something that's always with you?

         STUDENT:  Something that should be with you.

         PROFESSOR:  When you were a kid when were you not

       satisfied?  If you were hungry or if you had a feeling,

       that separation thing which is I'm not the universe at

       about 3 or a years old.  Up until that point -- how old is

       your child?

         STUDENT:  7 months.

         PROFESSOR:  He's like she's my universe.  When I go (cry)
 
 

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       you feed me.  When I'm 3 you're still part of me.  I can

       snap my finger and say juice.  My 3 year old does that.  I

       say how do we ask for juice and he says please then snaps

       and says juice.  Dangerous part is when the kid realizes

       you're not doing anything.  You say no and they're like

       what.  At that point we start to feel a little isolated and

       then the real intimidating part, the parents, they're big

       people an it's like they're volume never rabble.  At what

       point do we lose that desire to be lifted to Heaven or to

       trust?

         STUDENT:  You were talking about people being satisfied.

       I was talking about my grandfather.  My mom's family is

       from New York.  If you know the old camera shot of babe

       Ruth when he's pointing.  He was pointing at the cubs dug

       out cussing the people out and saying I'm going to hit a

       home run.  People don't want to believe that.  They want to

       believe he called the shot.  He's all about the stadium and

       before babe Ruth died when he was playing as a player coach

       and he hit the first ball ever hit out of pirate stadium,

       that was my grandfather's last couple of breaths, saying *

       talking about babe Ruth's home coming.  That's when there's

       nothing left to lose or gain.  You could have said paw-paw

       look, the camera shows it and he would be like no.

         PROFESSOR:  We have been trained, I think, to look for

       excitement, the next high.  That's why after 2 weeks of
 
 

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       being in a car it's still a car but it's not a new car.

       When it's new it's like oh.  New relationship.  What's the

       most exciting moment in any relationship?  The moment

       before you kiss.  After you kiss it's like bad breath,

       tongue not working right.  Your memory starts doing this

       exaggeration thing.  And it's like am I excited as I was

       last week, is he aging well?  Humanness starts to come out.

       That moment before the first kiss it's all about oh.  It's

       an amazing thing.  We always want to go back to that.  The

       problem with that is we always have the crash.  It's great

       to go for the high but you always have that low.  That's

       how people smoke.  Putting this one out and lighting this

       one up.

         STUDENT:  That's what they believe?  It's what they

       believe.  Why do you need cigarettes?

         PROFESSOR:  It seems to be that this is what we've been

       taught, excitement.  If you succeed you stay up high then

       this becomes the norm and you have to get higher.

       Physically your body breaks down.  If you have seen people

       who are drug addictss or sex addictss, is it Norepinephrine

       or something from the outside.  You can see it work on the

       outside, their face is wrinkled and all.  There was a thing

       on L Pb last night and they found out that 6 on to 7 on

       percent of the economy in Miami was because of drug money.

       So the economy became addicted to the drug money.  Columbia
 
 

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       was completed devoted to it.  Coffee, cocaine.  You can

       make money doing cocaine.  You can lose 9 on percent of

       your product in cocaine and still make an enormous Profit.

       They confiscated one major bust, 22 thousand pounds of

       cocaine.  They thought we've turned a corner.  There was

       nothing, not even a blip in the supply period or the price.

       Then people ask why is it that cocaine matters.  It was a

       gain at first.  You see these people who were speeded out.

       You know what happened to Richard prior.  This is what's

       left.  If there is nothing to gain and nothing to lose then

       what's left is people and it's not a question of gaining

       your friendship but connecting with each and every person

       through a thing we call our talents.  But your talents are

       not something, this is just my proposition, you think about

       this and work on this, if you have a problem with this

       great, bring it up, but if we take money, power and sex

       out, then all that's left inside of me is what I feel I

       have to give.  There is something inside of me saying my

       life will be better if I give this.  That transcends my

       body, my good days, my bad days because it doesn't depend

       on any of those.  I'm not riding a roller coaster anymore

       if that's where my focus is.  Also, I'm not broken anymore,

       not de farmed, not looking for something or someone to fix

       me.

       STUDENT:  You still have things to gain and things to lose.
 
 

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         PROFESSOR:  I give my talents right now.  You can go who

       cares and leave and never be seen again.

         STUDENT:  You still have your talents.

         PROFESSOR:  Have I gained anything or lost anything?

         STUDENT:  No.

         PROFESSOR:  I'm where I started.

         STUDENT:  Constant thought of others and how you may help

       meet their needs.

         PROFESSOR:  If I'm always thinking of others then I de

       pen on somebody else to say you're right, you're giving me

       something.

       STUDENT:  It's just the whole fact of you saying I want you

       to have it.

         PROFESSOR:  It's not a question of wanting you to have it

       but it's a question of it's what I have to do.  I always

       have to do this.  Something I discovered over the last 10

       years, this is something I have to do.

       STUDENT:  Why?

         PROFESSOR:  It burns.

         STUDENT:  Are you satisfied with doing it?

         PROFESSOR:  I recognize myself when I do it.

         STUDENT:  There are imperfections but it's still

       worthwhile to you.  You're not getting paid enough I'm

       sure --

         PROFESSOR:  Whatever I can gain can be taken away like
 
 

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       this.  Do my Hal talents still exist?  Yes.

         STUDENT:  Does it make you feel something you don't feel

       outside the classroom?

         PROFESSOR:  Used to.

         PROFESSOR:  For Thursday I want you to develop about 5

       possible topics that you think you could write about this.

       It doesn't have to be necessarily even related to this but

       some topic related to work.  5 possible topics.  Thursday

       we'll workshop them and put some of them on the board so we

       can get some feedback on what possibly you can write about.
 

CLASS III: WORK III
 

         PROFESSOR:  Groups of 3 or 4 and I want each group to

       come up with 4 possible topics to write on.  Rough draft

       due on Tuesday and final draft due next Thursday.

         STUDENT:  Food and work.

         PROFESSOR:  Yeah, if you're working at a restaurant

       chances are you will gain weight.  I worked at a Baskin and

       Robbins and I probably ate half my salary.  You have to try

       things out.  Or we could look at just funny stories about

       work.  Write about your favorite stories about work, silly

       stories, stories that kind of keep you human.  You could

       also do the opposite and do your horror stories about work.

       Remember you also need a context, audience and purpose to

       go with these but we're just talking about areas that you

       can focus on.  What's other possible topics?

         STUDENT:  Starting young.

         PROFESSOR:  So working as a kid, especially if you'd like

       to compare that to working now.  I had one person who

       worked, he saw one of his favorite things to do was tint

       people's cars.  Some people said he did a really good job

       and he got a job from someone who saw one done and his view

       before was work and play and then it became a job and it

       lost that appeal for him when he started to have deadlines

       and not choose his clients and things.  You could do work

       as a child different from work now like doing the laundry,
 
 

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       doing the lawn.  Now you have a job and maybe a uniform and

       stuff.  Those are possibilities.

         STUDENT:  Career related relationships.

         PROFESSOR:  Okay.  Such as?

         STUDENT:  How you relate to people on the job versus

       others.

         PROFESSOR:  So co workers versus friends, real

       relationships.  A lot of people refer to co workers as

       being the more real relationships.  You could look at that

       or anything dealing with relationships on the job.  You

       could look at your boss and the workers and how co workers

       interact and why they do.  You could look at why the coffee

       pot is where people hang out, why do people gossip on the

       job, why is everybody interested in what everybody else is

       doing?

         STUDENT:  Relationships with people outside of your job

       as work.

         PROFESSOR:  Yeah.  Looking at relationships as work.  We

       see a lot of books on self improvement, new and improved.

       So this could be like guidelines on relationships, things

       you've learned on how it is to work a relationship.  You

       may have a parent child situation, the work involved there

       or friendships.  There are different kinds of friendships

       also.  You know what you deal with.  It's also work to work

       on a hate relationship.  Every time before you see that
 
 

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       person you have to work it up.  What else?

         STUDENT:  Destructive habits of work.

         PROFESSOR:  Such as?

         STUDENT:  You work at a restaurant and you want to go out

       and drink every night because everybody pisses you off.

         PROFESSOR:  Okay you may feel your drinking is related to

       work.

         STUDENT:  Marijuana.

         PROFESSOR:  Whatever.  So maybe destructive habits that

       come from that demoralization.  What else?

         STUDENT:  Will I always work?

         PROFESSOR:  Okay.  You can take that proposition and do a

       lot with that.  You can do some sort of fantasy like what

       you think your future may be like.  There is no mystery to

       why MacDonald's -- like even star bucks is a drive through

       now.  As my brother said last night, coffee is an end of

       itself.  He used to look like me then he lost 600 pounds.

       He rubs it in by giving me all his old clothes.  He's gone

       from a 40 inch waste to a 28 inch waste in about a year and

       a half.

         STUDENT:  Was he sweating to the olddies?

         PROFESSOR:  He started exercising and stopped eating at

       much.  There were 2 reasons, his job was taking his whole

       life so when he did eat he'd eat a lot of carbohydrates.

       He was stressed out a lot and his youngest kid was still
 
 

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       not 5 years old.  His youngest child became 5 and more

       independent and all of a sudden he had free time at home

       because he could take her like roller blading or bike

       riding and he was not just biking around the neighbor hood

       of the lake front but he was biking from UNO to lake side

       mall and back.  That's about 10 to 15 miles easy.  But it

       tells you what a toll your work and life can have on your

       body.  Anybody ever seen Austin powers and the spy who

       shagged me?

         STUDENT:  Are talking about fat bastard?

         PROFESSOR:  Sexy body man.

         STUDENT:  It's making me all emotional.

         PROFESSOR:  Okay.  We don't need anymore of that.  What

       other things did you come up with?

         STUDENT:  Job promotions, titles.

         PROFESSOR:  So the concept of them?

         STUDENT:  Yeah.

         STUDENT:  The stress surrounding them.

         STUDENT:  Why you work so hard to get promotions.

         PROFESSOR:  Yeah, motivations --

         STUDENT:  And then why you don't get it.

         STUDENT:  There are people now who work and work and work

       so when they retire they'll be great but they're not

       enjoying what they have now.

         PROFESSOR:  So that work for tomorrow and not today.
 
 

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       That's a good topic, why it is people work for tomorrow and

       trying to create some sort of security for a day that may

       never come.  There is a maxim for that, save for a rainy

       day.  You know the ant and the grass hopper story?  Another

       way of looking at it is the grasshopper had a good time

       while he was living and sometimes winter doesn't come for

       you.  My office mate is probably going to be losing his

       mother to cancer in the next couple of days and I just lost

       an uncle and when ever you think about people and

       yourselves on their death bed you think well would I have

       rather been the ant or the grasshopper.  You work and work

       and then maybe the promotions never come.  You feel

       cheated.  Sure you need to prepare and plan but why is it

       that this is what you're living for?  Does it really

       matter?  On your death bed are you going to look at all the

       trophies and titles?  I don't know, they might.  That's

       like the memory of babe Ruth.  What other topics did you

       come up with?

         STUDENT:  How work efficient am I?

         PROFESSOR:  Right or how it's defined and why it's

       defined.  In football there is such a thing known as over

       pursuit where the defense can actually be so efficient that

       the off fence is able to throw the ball over their heads so

       the defense is then behind the ball and the Guy is over

       here taking off but the defense has been efficient but they
 
 

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       lose the play.  We call that  efficiency.  A friend of mine

       like if your work is dissatisfying, to have a motivational

       speaker come in and tell you how to be more efficient about

       wasting the time in your life is not a good thing.  It's

       just like in your writing.  You can have a beautifully

       written paragraph where all the sentences flow together but

       it can mean absolutely nothing.  With the idea of

       efficiency comes the other idea of evaluation.  If you've

       ever been evaluated you may want to think about that and

       why you were evaluated and how it turned out for you.  What

       else did you come up with?

         STUDENT:  Why work?

         STUDENT:  Why do people stay at jobs they hate?

         PROFESSOR:  That's a good one.  That's one I would have

       assigned.  If you get into this then you start to look at

       why did people keep doing the things they hate?

         STUDENT:  The pressure of work.

         PROFESSOR:  If you talk about pressure, this is a big

       part of this essay is going to be definitions.  The words

       you use and how you explain them.  You can say the term

       pressure and honestly, I mean what is -- what does it mean

       to have peer pressure?

         STUDENT:  Lets say a mother has kids.  Even if she

       doesn't have a job or whatever that's still work taking

       care of the kids.  Basically when you say why stay at jobs
 
 

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       that you really hate, taking care of kids is a job

       basically so why do it?

         STUDENT:  That's not necessarily a job you hate.  You

       obviously don't have children.  If you have a child you put

       everything in your life into that child, even beyond making

       it.  You would not even be able to say that.  You would not

       ask that question.  It's beyond work.

         STUDENT:  I know that but it's still a job.

         PROFESSOR:  There are job aspects to it.

         STUDENT:  But it's not a job, it's not optional unless

       you give up the whole option.  It's not like today I feel

       like being trev voar's mom and tomorrow I do nothing.  It's

       not optional.

         PROFESSOR:  Actually it is.  It's a daily choice.  There

       are people who are mothers and fathers that checkout all

       the time.

         STUDENT:  When you choose to be a mother you make a

       choice, you've chosen that job for yourself.  For me to say

       tomorrow I just won't change his diaper all day long, that

       would be insane.

         PROFESSOR:  You're making an important distinction.

       Adult responsibility of choosing and accepting the

       responsibilities of those choices and most people find

       themselves where this just happened to me and doesn't that

       suck to be me.  That's mostly in the younger mothers.  So
 
 

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       either the child is born and they make the choice to take

       care of it or they pass it off because they still want to

       do what they want to do.  This is a big difference because

       if you see your job as something you have to do because

       society tells you you have to and you have only a limited

       amount of choices then you fall into something that you can

       indeed hate because you know it never was your choice.  If

       you're here because someone made you be here or society

       made you be here then you're wasting your time.  If it's a

       choice and you make the vocation then it's not a job

       anymore.

         STUDENT:  I think unlike a job, even a person who gives

       up that responsibility, you can ask any person that gave up

       a child there is a feeling of regret or loss.  I could give

       up my job tomorrow and not care because I have no stake in

       it other than work.  Having a child there is stake in it

       whether you choose to give it up or not.

         STUDENT:  Some give it up and don't care.

         PROFESSOR:  The difference you're putting up is the

       stake.  When you made the choice then you've invested in it

       and if you have a stake in it and then if people lose their

       stake in work and they give it up -- when a person makes a

       choice, it doesn't matter what it is.  We make the

       distinction between a child and work but it's the same

       thing.  I invested and said this is important but I chose
 
 

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       this to be important.  In our society we're not trained or

       taught to be responsible for these choices.  We're victims,

       cigarette smoking everybody's a victim.  Everybody is a

       victim of drugs or abuse or myself esteem is bad because of

       the way everybody treated me.  At a certain point in your

       life that has to change or you continue having this meaning

       less existence.  At a certain point you choose the person

       you are.  So if you're still whining, bitching and moaning

       about your life then you have not made it yet because

       somebody still has control over you.  A lot of people say

       I'm doing this job that I hate for the kids.  If you do

       that you hate your kids.  You do.  There is nothing wrong

       with doing the job to make the responsibility work but if

       you're doing it for the kids and you hate your job then you

       look at them and say I'm doing this for them.  After a

       while that doesn't work, especially if they grow up not

       being what you wanted them to be.   most families don't

       have a evening meal because that's when a lot of talking

       comes in and some people don't want to do that.

         STUDENT:  My dad always told me I want the best for you

       in life and I always told him I don't want what you want

       that's all I heard for the longest time.

         PROFESSOR:  That's a person -- if you as a parent and

       your life sucks then you're going to try and make peace

       with it through your children.  That's what a lot of people
 
 

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       end up doing.  It's also through your significant other.

       My life sucks, heal me, make me complete.  So these

       relationships are supposed to be satisfying but they can

       become these very destructive or co dependent all because

       you know, in your heart, that what you're working at

       doesn't matter, it doesn't mean anything.  So what are you

       doing and what are you going to do?  Many people are going

       to tell you this is what you should do.

         STUDENT:  Then I say at work -- I know I'm going to get

       fired one day because people try to tell me what to do and

       I hate that.  If you let me do my own thing I'm great

       because I respect your rules and all of that but if you

       tell me I have to do this then I lose it.

         PROFESSOR:  There are a lot of people who say I want to

       be in medicine because I want the money but they hate every

       Doctor or lawyer they meet.  I knew a lot of people in

       engineering because of the money and then when they meet

       real engineers they go boring or either they liked it.  It

       depends on your personality.  If you have an attitude

       toward your work or job or whatever that you don't care it

       may be that you want to create your own situation where

       you're allowed that kind of freedom.  Try to contract your

       muscle for as long as you can hold it.  Eventually the

       muscle collapses.  How long can you hang on like that.  Or

       you get your job and you're afraid you will be found out as
 
 

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       a fraud.  I had a friend of mine on a phone interview and

       it was character basically and I said how did the interview

       go.  He said I told the truth.

       STUDENT:  I didn't get a job at Lowe's because of that.

         PROFESSOR:  Would you want to work at a job that they

       didn't accept your answers.  My brother was interviewed by

       several programs when going for an internship and one of

       the programs asked him was he a homosexual.  The fact they

       asked him that question told him something about their

       value system that he wanted no part of and he got up and

       left.  He's not a homosexual but he wanted no part of that.

       One female, 24, 25, attractive woman, and she was in

       interviews at a national convention in a hotel room and it

       was a Suite and it was call guys who was interviewing.  She

       was asked to sit on the bed because they took away all the

       chairs.  If you're a Guy you're saying what's the big deal

       but if you're a woman it is a big deal.  She said excuse

       me, I'm out of here.  I don't want any part of an

       organization that treats women like this because if I'm

       hired this is how they'll treat me.  When we start thinking

       of our work as important and what we to offer is valuable

       and not definable because after all what do you make in

       your job, what you're worth, what your job is worth or what

       it costs to replace you.  If you allow yourself to be

       defined by that as a person then that's dangerous.  They
 
 

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       can say I'm going to take that away and then where are you?

       Why are we scared?  This creates more fear than anything

       else that I'm aware of.  It's scarier than violence in the

       workplace, violence in the schools, scarier than our drug

       problem, education problem.  If you ask people the first

       thing they're scared of is losing their job.

         STUDENT:  Because you've built your life around your job.

         PROFESSOR:  Right.  It's about your job, how you're

       defined by your job, the title and mostly the income and

       what you think it's going to give you.  If you have some

       faith about you that what you're doing matters and is

       important to you, ultimately it doesn't matter if anybody

       pays attention or not because you know it matters.  Then

       you handle yourself differently and people say wow, you

       know what you're doing.  It's kind of like on a date.  At

       what point do I realize that if I keep dating this person

       eventually I' going to have to be around this person and

       not have on make up or be around this person and fart.  I

       look a certain way, I talk a certain way and all of that

       because I know this is what's going to make me attractive.

       Know what you're getting in to.  What do we want to do?  Be

       loved.  It's the same thing on a job interview.  Do we have

       the courage to say what it is we want out of life?  This is

       what's going to help you get it.  It's not going to be the

       money and the power and all of that.  When you stop looking
 
 

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       at homework as a way of getting a grade and look at it as

       how it's helping me focus ideas and thoughts and having

       more confidence in my ability to develop my own life, if

       that's what it's for then why does it matter if someone

       picks it up or if you get a bad grade on it.  Some people

       look at obstacles as a justification that they're on the

       right track because feedback is feedback.  Who wants to be

       bad?  Would you have made a different decision if you would

       have known all the specifications?  I think with better

       intelligence we make a different choice.  Even murderers

       can justify it in their heads.  I had to do it.  You don't

       understand, I had to do it.  So how are you going to look

       at this thing that is work?  Are you going to use your

       talents or not?  You can choose whatever you want as long

       as you understand it's your choice.  So you may want to

       look at that topic, what if there is nothing to gain and

       nothing to lose.  How would you treat your life differently

       in terms of what you're going to offer?  Not looking at

       your accomplishments and achievements, what are your real

       talents?  What experiences have told that.  Somebody in the

       other class is going to do theirs on their ideal job.  Her

       audience can be the universe or God.  There are no atheists

       during mid-terms, finals or when a cop shows up.

         STUDENT:  Or when you lean over the toilet bowl.

         PROFESSOR:  Any other possible topics y'all came up with?
 
 

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       Going once, going twice, rough draft on Tuesday, final

       draft on Thursday.  Make sure you have a context, audience

       and purpose.  Redoes are due on Tuesday.
 
 








































































































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